Once upon a time

perfect boyfriend
Every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her. Even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someone’s life.

give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in. 
leave her cute text notes.
kiss her in front of your friends.
tell her she is gorgeous.
look into her eyes when you talk to her.
let her mess with your hair.
touch her hair. 
just walk around with her.
forgive her for her mistakes.
look at her like she’s the only one you see. 
tickle her even when she says stop. 
hold her hand when you’re around your friends. 
when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
let her fall asleep in your arms.
get her mad, then kiss her. 
tease her and let her tease you back. 
stay up all night with her when she’s sick. 
watch her favorite movie with her.
kiss her forehead.
give her the world.
write her letters. 
let her wear your clothes. 
when she’s sad, hang out with her. 
let her know she`s important. 
kiss her in the pouring rain.
when you fall in love with her, tell her. 
and when you tell her, love her like you’ve never loved someone before.

all i see is darkness

i feel so empty sometimes,

no emotion, no sadness, no anger, no happiness.

just hollow, nothing inside, void of any feeling.

Empty

nellie

the silence is so loud .

" i wanted you to fight for me! I wanted you to say there is no one else that you could ever be with and that you would rather be alone than without me. I wanted the Lucas Scott from the beach that night; telling the world that he's the one For me " qouted from one tree hill

   DAMMIT!  juz prove to me you love me! not in words or material things! FIGHT FOR ME !  haizzzzz but you too busy doing your won stuff to realize that im slipping away .

juz got my phone back and readin through my old text messages .. we were so close .. what happen .. you were dare for me and i was there now we dun even talk .. i dunno if you even realize thats things are getting weird .

she needs you now but you cant seem to find the time ,
NELLIE

The Story - Brandi Carlile [Grey's Anatomy]

to the person who doesnt make me feel so lonely !
xoxo
nellie !

2011

hello 2011 welcome to my life ! :) i hope both of us can be good friends and you wont ruin my future :) for what you hold in you i do not know .
new years this year wasnt what i had in mind . I was in my room alone and i could here the fireworks from outside exploding in the sky . Envy was running through my blood when i think about people enjoying themselves as i sit on my bed and mourn the year that has passed . i should've stayed in aussie one more day and watch the sydney fireworks tat apparently cost 5 million .
My trip to Australia was awesome . I met my brothers girlfriend family :) i was stuffed wif so much italian food tat i put on 3kg! omgoshh!! have to go on diet now ! But Spm is coming so tat wont be a problem ... i lose weight when i am stressed ...
This is my first post for 2011 :) hehe:) .. may 2010 rest in peace
 xoxo
nellie

for granted

What did I do?

What did I say?

Why do I seem to be in your way?

Friends till the end,

Or so that's what I thought,

Now you don't have time,

and I'm always left out.

Haven't I been there for you?

Through thick and thin,

Figment of my imagination,

or is that the way its been?

When others turned their back,

Whether you were right or wrong,

Didn't I stand by you?

Wasn't I your friend all along?

On your lonely nights,

when no one else could relate,

I never thought twice,

it never was a debate.

I'm always there to hear you out,

Listening all the way, without a doubt.

What's so bad about wanting the same?

A friend that will stand by me,

One that won't play games.....

G-E-N-T-I-N-G

Went to Genting last weekend  with mummy dearest  for some fancy Master Card dinner :) the perks of being my mother's daughter is amazing :)
Stayed at some suite in the Genting/maxim hotel . The bathroom itself was bigger then my room! The bathtub had its own personal tv and a amazing view :) 

 I didnt get to spend much time in the fab hotel room because i needed to get ready for the formal dinner later tat evening . The evening was definitely one of kind, MasterCard must've really had a huge budget this year , the sit-down-dinner was lobster and salmon and all fancy expensive food .
The best part was of the dinner which was the desert course was  very interesting , The velvet curtain on the stage opened up and we were all stunned to see it beautifully decorated with  desert tat would make anyone's mouth water .

This two people had to stand in the table for the whole night , they couldn't move a inch , people juz came and took food off them .. i looked at them in awe and wondered how much they get paid to be tortured ! haha!

The party planer's for this event are damn creative ! haha :)

thank you MASTERCARD :)

And as you can see.. I got bangs! :) didn't workout as good as i hoped it would but i dun regret doing it :) i might miss my old hair , but it was time i took a risk :) i needed a change :)



ADRIEL! :) i hv checked my spelling this time OKAYYYY! :P:P:P Im soooo  touched you take time out of ya busy schedule to view my blogieee ,thanks twin!!!

xoxo

Nellie